It may seem silly or small but it's huge when all you have is just that - an accomplishment. I have made it two days without needing a nap from being so exhausted I cannot make it through an entire day.
I have also spent the last two days taking care of my 3-yr-old nephew. Oh man... let me tell you that is a chore. Waking up at 5am, breakfast, legos, baby being born, an entire day at the hospital visiting, then minor meltdowns and chasing around and around. Today was a little easier with an 8am wake up call, breakfast, legos, bath time, and only five hours of hospital visiting time, dinner, and bed.
I figure with this accomplishment then I can conquer work - so I have decided to go back early and try to stay as long as I can on Friday. We will see if I can make it a full day.
I am still hurting and my spleen is like a bulging banana-rama which is causing complete abdominal pain, but I really just cannot afford to stay off work much longer. So - goal is to work as long as possible Friday, Saturday, and then back to work full time next Tuesday.
Scary - that's the first thought that comes to mind when I think of going back to work. I still don't feel well - 100% - but I don't know that I will ever feel 100%. I've also been diagnosed with yet another auto immune disease - Rheumatoid Arthritis. So I have more specialists to be following up with and more dr appointments to be having. I have to go back to the Neurologist full time and my list of medications are growing.
But - on a lighter note. I finished my book. Now all I have to do is work on getting it published. I have to take the steps, figure out what I need to do and send it out. I know this process is a long one and usually it doesn't get accepted right away, but I am looking forward to this side project.
I registered for classes in the fall and am looking forward to continuing that journey as well.
It's been a long day. I have so much to be grateful for and I know that even with everything that is going on I am blessed to be alive, to be able to write, spend time with family, love those that need it and be loved.